i was in love. so heart-wrenchingly sick-to-my-stomach in love and i was STUPID. i let him get to me and he tore me up from the inside out. im still rubble, still in ruins and i am not sure if i can rise from that aftermath.

i still feel like i dont know who i am. ive been lost for so long. i still think about it. im still scared.

sometimes i still feel like the boy with a crush so overwhelming he cant speak and that is what makes me go cold